Almost Kinda Sorta

Survival Mode

Let me preface this by saying: I still have nothing to say.

I am stuck in survival mode.  It’s not that anything particularly stressful is happening, it’s just this job is sucking the life out of me.  In fact, if I didn’t have a stack of papers knee-high staring at me, I still probably wouldn’t be writing this post.

I don’t have higher brain functioning.  I don’t have the time or energy to reflect on what’s going on, to analyze what I should be doing or could be doing.  My brain is dull and it’s the only way I can make it through.  If I think about all the things I’d rather be doing, reading, thinking, learning, I can’t function.

I’m counting down the days to my 5 day weekend over Thanksgiving.  Every early release/late start is cause for celebration.

I am so grateful for the great group of teachers I work with who make it bearable.  Today, I didn’t leave school until almost 5 because we were chatting and goofing around.  So, despite dealing with a slough of nasty attitudes and apathy, I came home with a smile on my face.

Maybe I’ll regain some brainpower in December.